Everything is not right, CVS summary and detail does not match. My baby is normal, Dr Ang suggest me to abort it. I really hate Dr Fong, because of him I have to end my baby life.
On 28/09/10, I was admitted to TMC for abortion. This is the time my legs can't carry my boby, I lost all my strenght to stand and walk after I have done the admission at the admission counter. Hubby has to carry me with all his strenght till the nurse push him a wheelchair to send me to my ward.
I start to induce the baby even though I don't wish too, tears keep falling just like opening a watertap. I refuse to let go off my hubby and insist him to stay by my side. I do notice the redness on his eyes but he hold it for me and as me to cry out if I want too.
The induce was a torture to me, even though the process was not painful at all. It is the emotion that I have to been through, killing a life by my own hands when this life is what I wanted to have so long. I was admitted to one bed ward to have this process done, the stress and emotion is really a torture that no words can says.
I have a full 8 doze of pills for my induced and the baby was out till the next day 29/08/10 11am plus. This is the date forever I will not forget, the date when my baby was died, the date that I have killed and ended my baby girl life, the date that I will never able to forgive myself, the date when all my pain started instead of ending............
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